Today

Grrrrrrr.....
I cant cope wit all this again! What to do I dont know! Wish I could stop the tears from coming! I dont want to feel like this but how to stop it!
Work- I dont want to go back but what choice do I have! Everytime ive applied for a job it hasnt worked out! maybe im useless! I dont no wat i want to do!Do I want ot go back to childcare or something different I just dont no!
Alex- I love him nd want to be wit him! maybe its my fault all my last 3 now exs have said they cant be wit me cause of ther state of mind! Must b my fault wat did I do wrong! Its not fair!!!!! I just want to b wit him in his arms nd feel safe!
Family- Why wont she get out of the relationship I dont understand she puts that she loves him but wont say it too our faces!!!!!!!!! He is controlling and she knows it! I love Landon to pieces nd want to have that same bond wit Hallie I dont want to loose either of them if i did i cudnt go on! I want everything to b ok! I really cant stand HIM wish he wud disapear wud solve the problems!!!! That sounds so unchristian i no i dont want to think like that!
Band- I no they love me to bits I feel bad that i missed rehursals nd its so difficult once i missed a couple to go bac at least a few know some of wats been happening so that will be easier i cant b dealin wit lots of questions about it!!!! Wat Keith said is true im a nice person nd ppl take advantage of that! What he said about nic sounds true the way she is acting but thers nuttin i can do which is really frustrating!!!!
Bible Study- I felt like such a fraud yesterday the way i am feeling Im hoping talkin to Alan will help! Hes got so much to worry about
I just want life to b normal watever that is just to b able to b happy for once