Aaarrrgh!!!!

Why why why! I thought things were going so well! I know ian menat well with that email yesterday! who else got it? i cant handle comments or questions about things that are goin on at the moment! Band is hard enough at the mo im going to be so worried on tuesday and be on edge about everything if I go im so worried now! I hope my email made sense to Glen i need to no he is probably going to think I am mad! which maybe I am! I dont think he wud have known up until then how much things have affected me and part of my reason for not being at band! I dont know whether to email Keith about it all! I just dont no anything anymore! Grrrrrrr
Alex is levin facebook as he left a message on ther last nite that was the only real way for me to keep an eye on him! How can I cope now!
Work is a pain in the arse after 20mins yesterday I just wanted 2 go home Id had enuf it was so tirin espesh with my hip hurting nd it stil does now! Hope its better today I really cant cope! dont wanna work 2day! hope it will take my mind off things as the only ppl that no anything is Neil and Steph! nd i no they wont say anything espesh 2 management as they just use i against me!
ONly one gd bit yesterday was at Judy and Davids it was great! they r like a 2nd set of parents since i came to Bramford Road! Gotta luv a power cut! at a meetin if it had carried on it wud have bin the quickest meeting ever! I love it that I have my voice heard and it is listened too and respected!