Ahhhh!!!!!!!!!

Why Why Why!!!! I so want this job so why cant i write about myself and why i want it!!! I cant believe it about Neil! Im so shocked i cant stop thinkin bout it! it keeps makin me think! Poor Sue I no her nd Neil wer so close she is upset i can tell! He was the one who brought some enthusasim to the group! I cant deal wit all this again all i want is a hug! im tryin my hardest to keep it together but i cant do it!
God why is everything bad hapenin to me!

My life is full of WHYs at the mo!!!

Today

Today hasn't been too bad Ive now made a positive step by looking for a new job altho that will prolly be the only one this week! I hope im going in the right direction! I know ive got the support of some great friends who will stick by me!

AHHHHHHH!!!!

Why does my life seem stuck whereas all my friends seem to b movin on nd are happy! Everyone seems to leave me nd go there seperate ways nd im stuck!!!!!! Or is busy with there own lives. Maybe im being selfish I don't know. I just don't like my life at the mo! I just don't know what i want to do with it. I know i'm not happy but what. They say God has a plan for everyone and knows what he has mapped out but I wish he would tell me. Everything I try fail maybe its meant to make the sucess better or to make me be a stronger person or im just doomed to failure I don't know! I know nothing!!!!!!!! Maybe I need to do some thinking or with me it won't usually help will just make things worse.

Today

Ive been off work but have had the busiest week! See my Lyd! nd having time to chat about things that have been on my mind! Doing alot of thinking about what I what to do with my life! My recent break-up and also the bible study have given me alot to think about! Makes my life complicated! Need to trust in God that everything will be fine!